Made up my mind.....

I have made up my mind. About what? Well, initially, I wanted to have another kid this year, but after an argument with my mom last Friday, I think it just kinda sealed my decision. This year would probably be the last year that I can enjoy myself and spend more time with Ashley because from next year onwards, I guess I will probably be expecting a baby. At first, the plan was to have another kid this year, give birth next year, put the baby in infantcare for a few months before I officially "retire" and take a new job - SAHM. But after that argument with my mom and talking with my best friend, I realise that nothing is more satisfying than looking after your own child by yourself. My mind being made up, I told hubby about it. At first, he was a bit hesitant but after I told him the reasons, he supported my decision wholeheartedly.

It's really not easy being a working mom but the things that I have missed out when Ashley was growing up in infantcare really pains my heart....I missed her first step, her first words, most of her first but I have to say that she have grown up to be a confident, boisterous child. Yes, she is very independent but somehow I feel so guilty for putting her in the childcare for the 1st 6 years of her life. So now that I'm really planning for a 2nd one, I guess career can take a backseat first as my children is the main priority in my life now. Hopefully, when they look back at their growing years, they can proudly say that they have a wonderful childhood as I was with them during their growing up years....

On my way to losing weight.....

Yesterday, I tortured myself at the gym. Yup, you didn't read wrongly. Me, exercise, gym after god knows how many years since I gave birth. Why the need you may ask? Well, it's because of health sake. And also I'm hoping to have another kid, but in order for me to do that, I got to lose those stubborn post-preggie fats. And also, I have yet to take my wedding pictures wz hubby. So I was hoping that this would be a good motivation for me to shed those excess weight and look good in photos. Everyone knows that a camera adds 10 pounds to your face/body/frame. But you know what was the best thing? Hubby said, why not I give birth first then lose the weight then we go and take pictures. WT??!!!! We have postponed this for 5 years already and now he wants to postpone it further? Then both of us would be in our 50s when we decided to take the photos...LOL

Anyway, I'm not letting this get in my way. So now, I'm not targetting at the time frame but more of how much I can lose. And judging from the workout me and M are doing, I think I can safely say we will be able to hit our target soon...that is IF I don't go and pig out on weekends, as it will defeat the whole purpose...=)

So wish me luck!!!