I realised that I have not posted anything for 2 years...oh well, this is what happens when the lazy bug strikes...time really flies and now Ash is in P3 and she is going to be a elder sister soon!! Yup!! I have a little bun in the oven that is due in Sep.
It's really by God's grace and blessing that He has given this special one to us. All along, we wanted a 2nd one but then we felt that the time was not right. I guess God also felt that way. But somewhere along the way, he have decided to test my faith in him and gave us an unexpected blessing last year. No wonder I was constantly tired in Aug 12. Then my BFF told me that I have put on weight, which I told her that it's not possible as I was training for my runs and trying to lose weight. But something that she said made me get a test kit and went back to test.
Lo and Behold!! The result came back positive! I was stunned!! Nevertheless, hubby was grinning from ear to ear and Ash was shocked at first but she was really happy. The whole weekend was just spreading the good news and I wanted to make an appointment with my gynae, come Monday morning. But God has other plans. Wee hours of Monday morning, I woke up with a fright and saw that I was bleeding. Quickly got hubby up and we rushed to KKH. Manage to stablised the bleeding and was on straight orders to have bed rest for a week. Unfortunately, on Friday, I was bleeding again and quickly went back to KKH again. This time, I was admitted and monitored. But nothing could be done to save the baby. Hubby was so sad and it was the first time I saw tears in his eyes. He was so hoping to have another child in the house but if God feels that the time is not right for us to have a 2nd one, then he will know when is the right time for us to have a 2nd one. He ask me if I ever blame God for what is happening. I said nope, I have never blamed Him as I know that God has other plans for me and when the time is right, He will let me know.
Fast forward to early part of this year. Again, I felt something is not right so immediately i went to get 2 test kits to test. When I saw the result, I was still skeptical about it. So in the evening, went to see the GP and yup, it's correct. So now, I'm preggie with my 2nd child and the journey so far was smooth but not so smooth as I wish. But nevertheless, I do thank God for giving us this blessing and also to validate my concerns of the future. It's not easy planning for what is going to happen in the near future but as I told my hubby, I leave it all to God, who will know what to do. I'm just praying for a smooth delivery and also for the baby to be healthy. That is all that matters to me now.
