It's going to be the end of the year soon and looking back this year, I wish there were certain things that I can change and some decisions that I wish I didn't make. As for holidays, I can't deny that it's very good. In fact, from Dec last yr till Oct this year, I have been to places which I can only go if I have the extra cash. Last year, I went to Phuket with my former company. Even though it was a company trip, but it was quite nice as the last time I've been there was like when I was abt 12, 13 yrs? Gosh, that is sure a loooong time. Then there were short trips to KL and Seremban, which was good as a quick getaway. In Sept, went to Sunway with hubby and princess and had so much fun. Then just last month, went to Bali with my current company, which I must say it was fun. The shopping was really cheap, compared to what they have. Like Roxy or Quicksilver, the things there are much cheaper, I guess, due to the exchange rate. And now, I'm contemplating of going back to Bali with the family or maybe to Hong Kong to the Disneyland for Ashley. She is growing up so fast that I feel I'm not even spending enough time with her.
But now, there are more serious issues that I have to think about and that is can we afford to have another kid? I was talking to hubby yesterday and initially, I wanted to have only one more, but since I'm going to stop work, why not have 2 instead? At least it makes the house more lively. But then, can we survive only on hubby's pay? I know that his company will give good bonus but it would mean that we have to sacrifice alot of things. By alot of things, that means no going out to eat often, no new toys, no more coffee bean breakfast or drinks. I know that it would not be easy but would I be able to handle 3 kids? Already with princess I feel that I'm not spending time with her, so if I decided to have 2 more, would that means I will not have any time for her at all? Sigh, sometimes, hubby tells me to pray and have more faith in HIM but then, being human, we tend to think too much.
Oh well, I guess it's time for me to go back to church and start to pray for more strength, courage and wisdom to overcome these "obstacles" that is going thru my mind now.
