Made up my mind.....

I have made up my mind. About what? Well, initially, I wanted to have another kid this year, but after an argument with my mom last Friday, I think it just kinda sealed my decision. This year would probably be the last year that I can enjoy myself and spend more time with Ashley because from next year onwards, I guess I will probably be expecting a baby. At first, the plan was to have another kid this year, give birth next year, put the baby in infantcare for a few months before I officially "retire" and take a new job - SAHM. But after that argument with my mom and talking with my best friend, I realise that nothing is more satisfying than looking after your own child by yourself. My mind being made up, I told hubby about it. At first, he was a bit hesitant but after I told him the reasons, he supported my decision wholeheartedly.

It's really not easy being a working mom but the things that I have missed out when Ashley was growing up in infantcare really pains my heart....I missed her first step, her first words, most of her first but I have to say that she have grown up to be a confident, boisterous child. Yes, she is very independent but somehow I feel so guilty for putting her in the childcare for the 1st 6 years of her life. So now that I'm really planning for a 2nd one, I guess career can take a backseat first as my children is the main priority in my life now. Hopefully, when they look back at their growing years, they can proudly say that they have a wonderful childhood as I was with them during their growing up years....

On my way to losing weight.....

Yesterday, I tortured myself at the gym. Yup, you didn't read wrongly. Me, exercise, gym after god knows how many years since I gave birth. Why the need you may ask? Well, it's because of health sake. And also I'm hoping to have another kid, but in order for me to do that, I got to lose those stubborn post-preggie fats. And also, I have yet to take my wedding pictures wz hubby. So I was hoping that this would be a good motivation for me to shed those excess weight and look good in photos. Everyone knows that a camera adds 10 pounds to your face/body/frame. But you know what was the best thing? Hubby said, why not I give birth first then lose the weight then we go and take pictures. WT??!!!! We have postponed this for 5 years already and now he wants to postpone it further? Then both of us would be in our 50s when we decided to take the photos...LOL

Anyway, I'm not letting this get in my way. So now, I'm not targetting at the time frame but more of how much I can lose. And judging from the workout me and M are doing, I think I can safely say we will be able to hit our target soon...that is IF I don't go and pig out on weekends, as it will defeat the whole purpose...=)

So wish me luck!!!

Andrea Bocelli Sings to Elmo

Cancelled dinner

Dinner was canceled today as my MIL was hospitalised. I did not get the news until I was having lunch with my parents and Ashley. So after lunch, I asked my dad to drop me off @ TTSH. Upon arriving there, I saw my youngest brother in law and he told me that my husband was in there waiting for the doctor to check on my MIL. Then about 1/2 hrs later, my eldest SIL came and took over. From there, I knew what happen.

My MIL was not feeling well for the past 2 days and she just self medicated. But this morning, when she was at home, she just felt that she can't breathe and was about to pass out. Lucky that my SIL's maid was with her so my MIL ask her to call my SIL, who in turn call the ambulance and also tried to contact my other BIL and my youngest SIL.

Then at the hospital, the doctor came and gave a bad news. She have fatty liver (liver cirrhosis), kidney problem, heart problem, a suspected ucler that is might be th cause of the bleeding and very low blood count. He also told her that if she continue to drink, she might just drink herself to the grave. Naturally, my husband also told her that it's about time she have to listen to the doctor if not, she will hv to be admitted very often. Yes, it was bad of him to scare the old lady, but when faced with a stubborn mom, it's not easy coz to the elderly people, admitting to the hospital only means one thing - death. So I guess it kinda sink into her that this time her condition is very serious.

I do hope that everything goes well, as it's quite tiring for the whole family. I should know because it was almost 10 years ago that my dad had colon cancer and it was a really horrifying experience for my family. Imagine, rushing to the hospital after work to spend time with my dad and also worrying that would he recover. But thank god, he has fully recovered and now he is enjoying himself. He says that he is living on bonus time from the Lord and he is thankful that each day he gets to see his family. I

So now, all I can do is just to pray and hope that my MIL would recover soon.

Dinner @ Jumbo.....

Tonight, I'm going for dinner with my in-laws. It's our overdue CNY reunion dinner. I know that it's like 2 wks late but becoz we didn't want to eat the set meals that the restaurant have for CNY and also we didn't want to clash with all the couples on V-day. And now, the day have finally arrive. I know, I promise my hubby to behave myself by not throwing any tantrums but I can't guarantee that I won't blow my top. Why did I say that? Well, something happen the last time round and I was not really happy about it. It will not be mentioned here least they might read this and think that I'm petty. So hopefully, everything will go smoothly tonight (fingers crossed).

My recent dish....

Bought lots and lots of potatoes last weekend so decided to make a simple shepherd's pie. Mind you, it's been a while since I have last used the oven to bake anything coz the oven is on the verge of breaking down. So I thought why not make a pie, then at least princess can have it for lunch. So on Sunday morning, got up, cleaned the house and proceeded to make the pie. It was quite fast thanks to the handy potato masher from IKEA. Added lots of milk and butter to the mashed potatoes...yummy!! So after frying the meat and veggies, I added it into a nice big bowl and put the potatoes on top of it. Sadly, I forgot to buy mozerella cheese for it would be nice having a cheesy mashed potato pie :). Then, once that is done, I put in the oven and let it bake for about 20 mins. But as my oven is a bit weird, I added in another 10 mins to be on the safe side.

30 mins later:

Voila!! My first pie for the year. And hopefully not my last. :)

I'm twittering...

Have just joined Twitter. It seems to be better than blogging. And I have to agree. So if you want to know what I am up to the whole day, just go to http://twitter.com/ashleymummy